INSIDE OF ME

People thought I am Strong

People thought I am Happy

Maybe because they always see me

Laughing, kidding

and did not takes things seriously

i knew it was a false thought


Coz behind those laughter,

and a funny stuff I've shared

Is a sensitive heart

that can easily broken

An eye that wants to cry

A confusing mind

that embraces problems and hurts

honestly, i am a loner...

and it hurts me so much


People blinded of what I've shown outside

without even noticed who is me inside

Maybe I was strong enough to handle it well

I always say " it's fine even though something goes wrong"

sometimes i wished that people could understand me

But inside of me was a heart and mind say

" i am the one who can understands me"

Pasko na naman!

Pasko na naman!

and its still the same..
like an ordinary day for me.

i feels happy yet sad
kasi d kame sama-sama ng family ko to celebrate Christmas
and it was the First time and i wish that we'll celebrating Christmas together eventually.

I'm so grateful coz God grant my wish.
even though it was just a dreamed.
it was a best gift i ever have this Christmas
such a beautiful nightmare.. <3 <3

how i wish it would turn to reality
but i know it'll might happens..
coz we are now in different path (:

Still
I wish a merry merry Christmas and a Good health everyone. ☻☻

U DON'T BELONG W/ ME

by: JL Lasan

I'm on the phone with my girlfriend,
You're upset
You're goin' on about something that she said
'Coz she gets my humor better than you do.

You're in your room,
It's a typical Tuesday night
You're trying hard to catch the music that we both liked
Oh, you'll never get my story like she does...

Well I like short skirts, I hate T-shirts
Love cheer captains but you love the bleachers
I wish for the day when you wake up and find that really,
I'm not yours, so stop wasting my time.

If you could see you're not the one who understands me
Leave me all alone
Oh, why can't you see-ee-ee
You don't belong with me-ee-ee...
You don't belong with me.

I walk in the streets
With your eyes on my own jeans
I can't help thinkin' if your brain has really tweaked
You're laughin' on a park bench talking to yourself?
Well aren't you cra-ay-zyy...

Yes, I've got a smile that can light up this whole town
But every one of 'em dims out when you're around
You're never fine, you should do better than that...
Instead of living with your one-eyed cat.

Well I like high heels, I hate sneakers.
Love cheer captains but you love the bleachers
I wish for the day when you wake up and find that really,
I'm not yours, so stop wasting my time.

If you could see you're not the one who understands me
Leave me all alone
Oh, why can't you see-ee-ee
You don't belong with me-ee-ee...

Standing by and waiting on my back door
All this time,
Oh could you stop stalking me-ee-ee...
You don't belong with me-ee-ee...
You don't belong with me.

Ohh, I remember you
Drive into my house
In the middle of the night
Yes, you crashed onto my couch,
Ruined everything in sight
You almost killed me too,
And I know I should've screamed
Think I know where you belong:
That asylum down the stree-eet.

Can't you see you're not the one who understands me
Leave me all alone
Oh, why can't you see-ee-ee
You don't belong with me-ee-ee...

Standing by and waiting on my back door
All this time,
Oh could you stop stalking me-ee-ee...
You don't belong with me-ee-ee...
You don't belong with me.

Oh,
You don't belong with me-ee!

Will you ever stop stalking me-ee-ee...
You don't belong with me-ee-ee...

You don't belong with me.a

You Broke Like Glass

by: JL Lasan


Shower up for the party...

The ride starts now:

Your love is like mildew
That ruins the beautiful moss
Your love is like a dear friend,
And I deeply grieve its loss.

Your love is like a catapult
That tears down mighty walls
Your love is like a symphony
That brought sorrow to the halls.

Your love is like the morning
That corrupts the evening stars
Your love is like the evening
That corrupts the sunset hours.

Your love is like ice cream
on a cold winter day
Your love is rotten nectar
That drives the bees away.

Your love is early classes
(never fails to ruin my slumber)
Your love is noisy chainsaws
For poor, lonely lumber

Your love is like a poem
That is so long and so annoying
Your love is like a song
That's dedicated to the dying.

Your love is like a cancer
That caused a million and one deaths
Your love is like a sickle
That is sharp out of its sheath.

Your love is nothing...
But a second rate, trying hard, copycat.
Your love is like a lady
That has overdosed with Orlistat

Your love is like a storm
That devastated all our houses
Your love is like a mousetrap
That murders cutie little... (mouses?)

Your love is like cheap wine...
That is so not fit for dates.
Your love is like cheap roses
That smelled of burial crates.

Your love is a broken record
That ever repeats its senseless lines,
Your love is a broken record
That ever repeats its senseless lines.

Your love is a broken record
That ever repeats its senseless lines,
Your love is a broken record
That ever repeats its senseless lines.

Just when I thought you and I would last...
You broke like glass.

FOREVER

He says FOREVER.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

FOREVER is OVER

hOw many times i ToLd maHseLf

i get Over Him

But How caN i??

F i fOuNd maH seLf tHinking of Him..

eVrytimes i go to sLeeP..

i drEamed aBouT him

evrytimeS i aM a LOOner

i wIsh he was rYt hEre by maH sIde

im LOngiNg fOr HIM

his Love

His sWeetcaress

i want Him back in maHLyf

i want to hear him says ” I love yOu, yNgaTs caH huh, missyah!!”

hehehh ^_^ again

i Knew its diFfereNt Now

aNd i dun Have a Ryt to feeL this way!

cOz he is Not MINE anyMore :[

baT gaNUn?

i Keep hOldin’ on of his Promises

That we”ll gOnna be FOREVER.

But waT haPpeNed??

He LeFt me … aNd Now

FoREvER is OVer

aLL i caN do is…..

FoRgive maHseLf fOr beiNg sTUpid

aNd fOrGet he eXisT!!

—-heaLiNg PrOcess is Not Yet over——